The abyss

The sun is warm. I am standing on the edge of a cliff. This same cliff that has witnessed so much drama, happiness, excitment, anger, fear and despair. 

On this cliff, young wives have contemplated their imminent widowhood. The dark and far carcass of a once prideful frigate sinking with lives and uproars amidst the enraged ocean. Tomb to so many husbands, fiances and fathers.

Ooh Cliff!  Young suicides have laid their lives on your altar. Lovers have lost their innocence on your fresh and green grass hair.

From your edge, I see the sea. I can smell its iodised, cold and salted wind. I can feel its mood and power.

The wind blows in my hair but I could not care less. I am on the edge of an abyss.

Be with me always, take any form, drive me mad! only do not leave me in this abyss, where I cannot find you! Oh, God! it is unutterable! I cannot live without my life! I cannot live without my soul!”    Heathcliff.

Time

Someone may have stolen your dream when it was young and fresh and you were innocent. Anger is natural. Grief is appropriate. Healing is mandatory. Restoration is possible.

Truth rather alleviates than hurts. It will always bear up against falsehood as much as oil does above water. Truth inhibits shame. Truth covers with glory and forgives. Truth is closure. Relief.

It is often said that the discipline of desire is the background of character. But then, those who survive the original sin shall be in heaven. It is not about “non-desire”. It is about overcoming the sin. It is about standing tall after the fall.

How many mistakes are we allowed in our lives? Do we always regret them? Are they so bad?

Some people want to make mistakes in order to learn from them. Some others avoid them at all cost. Mistakes are the luxurious cherry of time. It is about losing the sense, behind the enormous value of a minute.

I breathe and relax a nerve.

I live in the quiet, joyous expectation of good.

The Wheel of Fortune

They say the Wheel of Fortune brings luck, change, fortune.

The card mean movement, change and evolution, but its primary meaning always seems to say that such changes will seem to come out of the blue, a stroke of good, unexpected fortune.

We are going to get that money, that job, that promotion, that special person, that break they’ve been waiting for.

It is karmic payback for all the good things we’ve done in life - destiny or just luck - but whatever lottery out there, we won.